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Soooooo. November 19th.
Tomorrow will be two years since i was admitted to Remuda Ranch in Arizona.
Two years since my low weight of 79 lbs.
I feel kind of sad but i'm not sure why.
I miss it. Honestly.
I miss being sick enough to need treatment.
How fucked is that?


My family and I were all talking about it at dinner tonight.
My horsie, shortstop - the smallest, slowest horse on the ranch.
All my best friends, who i swore to see again, and haven't.
My therapist Mike who i couldnt bring myself to write knowing he wouldnt be able to write me back.
All the songs we sang "Sagebrush girls are mighty fine, cuz we eat from 6 to 9!
All new visitors beware, cause we have long leg hair
Monitors we call for them, when we have a big B.M
Victory is what we call when we stink up the stall - sagebrush break it dowwwn!"
HAHAHAHA i actually wrote that with a couple friends while i was there
apparently the girls still sing it that made me happy.

My weight was 101 @ 5'2" yesterday bmi 18.5
I can live with it, i guess.
I weigh to much to be considered "sick" again
but its still not my ideal body weight according to what i was released at RR from
&& what my doctor at home said.
Whatever ill probably put on 9581347964 pounds over winter because my body cant handle the COLD

Wanna see my cuteee toga, we went to a toga party on Friday


more under the ( cut )





table dancing of courseee

girls and my bf being a retard hahah


xo night all